Sabar again..

Dear Beautiful Readers,

Pagi tadi, aku still rasa don't feel like going to work.

Ntah kenapa..

But due to the fact that I have to attend a discussion/meeting with a counterpart from Australia, then aku gagahkan jugak pegi.

It's tough though..

At noon, my boss asked me to follow her for lunch.

Aku dah agak dah..

Well..an hour after that, aku rasa a bit lega, although I still have to carry the burden.

Yes, I have to take the challenge and have to try my very best to face all this (although it's very hard to swallow)

Aku berserah lagi pada-Nya. This is such a big test for me.

Petang tadi before balik, Shaz (colleague aku), datang tegur aku and showed his concern. Another relief for me.

But what else should i do? It's tough to tackle this ONE!

Aku hanya mampu berdoa, and do my best...

Migrate or Not?

Dear Beautiful readers,

Pursuant to my dilemma as "reported" earlier in previous posts, one of the actions taken is whether to migrate or not (gila kan?)

I always have this dream of having the opportunity to work overseas.

Yeah, it's proven that some of my friends/colleagues/acquaintances have this golden opportunity at their hands.

Probably they r luckier than me.

Or probably i have to be patient and bersyukur..

Anyway, back to the issue, i was invited for an appointment with a representative of a Company who's in charge of handling professional migrants to Australia. It sounds good to me..but well, it's not that easy and i really have to think that wisely.

P/S: Thanks to "Abe" who is willing to share and give some advice to me late this evening at work.I really appreciate that. Nati duik consultancy awok tuh kito kao tim denge bendo lain deh? :-) (Korang paham tak aku cakap apa?)

I am in dilemma..

Dear Beautiful readers,

Some of you guys might have already knew the "dilemma" that I am currently facing.
And thanks to those who are willing to listen, lending a shoulder to cry on (although literally I didn't really pinjam their bahu nak nangis..:-))

I am confused.

I am in dilemma.

I don't have mood to be at work.

I don't know what else to do.

The impact is so huge to me, 'till i feel like...ermm...don't feel like going to work, lose my focus and concentration and can't really think wisely.

And this is not me!

I have to re-highlight this again to my boss, as I think she should know the truth.

I feel like quitting because of this..

No!!! Don't be a loser...

Aku hanya mampu berserah and tawakkal.

Alhamdulillah....

Things that I have done this weekend...(Sambungan)

Dear Beautiful readers,

As promised in my earlier posting, here is the update:

White shirts - for formal events (Kalau ada / being invited laa kan...)

Collared T-shirt (love the colour)

Gila Wii @ home

Things that I have done this weekend...

Dear Beautiful Readers,

Since Herry (adik aku) ada kat sini during the weekends, here are the things that I have done so far, since last nite:

a) Main Wii (hahah...lawan tennis, bowling etc!)
b) Wii Fit...(cheq fit jugak seh...heheh)
c) Shopping..(Pavi and KLCC, here we come!)

Errmm...nanti laa aku paste some of the pics!

Tawakkal

Dear Beautiful Readers,

Thank God that today's Saturday. My lil' bro is here with me and he arrived yesterday. He followed me after work, although I didn't really feel good at work on Friday.

Anyway, I did have a good conversation with my other staff, the junior one. It's all because of her confirmation, and yes we did discuss and should I want to be a bit cruel to her, I can do that...but me being "always mr Nice Guy", instead i boosted up her confidence.

The day went well, until we had the review with the bosses at 5 p.m. Yes, I didn't have a chance to do that since my senior exec had play her roles (thanks for all the conflict that she has created). My boss didn't "tegur" me at all during day..

Was she mad at me?

Were the girls did tell bad things about me (since I got to know they went up for lunch with my boss?)

Probably the boss think that I am actually the one who created this, which is totally NOT!!

Well...i really have to be patient and tawakkal in this case. Whatever people want to say, I still have some few good colleagues and of course, my family.

P/S; Ok jugak adik aku kat sini now, at least aku tak bosan...:-)

Jom Main! :-)

Dear Beautiful Readers,

I am actually not a "game" person.

But I was tempted to get this Wii! Finally..

Went to Low Yat with ER (thanks for carrying my console though! Hujan renyai2 beb!)

Another shopping trip at Pavi.

Oh, by the way, while having lunch at MK, that "celebrity" was sitting beside our table.He's on TV tonite at 8! :-)

P/S: Thanks ER for your advice about my staff, appreciate that. It does make sense, in a way...

P/P/S: Sapa nak main Wii? Jom!

Sabar

Dear Beautiful readers,

Words can really be misconstrued.
I think it has been re-phrased.

The problematic staff of mine had come to me yesterday once i sent her an email asking "can we reconcile?"
initially I could hear her saying..."no way.." and giggling with the other staff (who is "mulut takleh jaga")

And she serang me...

As a conclusion, i think I have been slandered and words have been misconstrued, totally.

I really have to be patient.

Whatever they wanted to say or ngumpat, let it be..

Amin..

P/S: Thanks to Shue, H and Shaz for their honest opinions, especially Shue. And I can never really trust anyone in my department...

Thank God

Dear Beautiful readers,

I couldn't focus at work in the first part of the morning.

And I don't know why. I feel agitated. I didn't know where to start first.

But I managed to give clear explanation on to the other party from other unit who needs my clarification.

It's an achievement though, for me at least!


After lunch time, i accidentally attended a sharing session organized by my fellow colleague. In that session, hahaha..it was my "old flame" (sort of..) who gave the presentation. Unfortunately, i couldn't be long as I have to attend another meeting.

Then later after that, I sent email to him saying that I wish that I can catch up with him..
Hahaha..meroyan ke apa aku nih? Long story though...aku je yang perasan kut?

Anyway...sure dah bosan kan baca citer aku? Asyik berangan je..

Petang tadi, while having a review with my boss, I told her about the "dilemma" that I am having currently with the staff. She agreed with me but again...stay put and I have to learn to manage. I really appreciate her feedbacks.Thanks H!

Left office after Maghrib. Had dinner with Shue, and again..we discussed about the same thing. I was totally agreed and appreciate her time. Yes...we're in the same boat and we have to draw the line.
We did talk about family, sometimes..kita nih, time2 sedih ke...apa ke..baru la ingat nak call family.
Kalau heartbroken nak rak, bleh plak takleh tido ingat kat org yg tinggalkan kita tuh..

Whatever it is...don't take family for granted :-)

P/S: On the way driving back terus aku call mak..hehe

Zombie

Dear Beautiful readers,

Left office at 12 midnight last nite. And I felt really like a zombie this morning.

Have to reach office quite early for the meeting. And guess what? I was at my desk at
0630 hours! :-)

Takut pun ada, but I have to be there, since there are a few last minute changes to be done for the slides, before the presentation..nasib laa..

As usual, it's a busy day for me...but glad it's over and it was such another good experience.

Met Amy J for coffee later that evening and we did discuss a few things about what is currently happening in our organisation.

P/S: Teringin aku nak jumpa Pena, but nanti laa kut..

Can't wait!

Dear Beautiful readers,

I can't wait.

I can't wait for all these things to end and get over with it.

By next week / end of this month I think it should be fine. And times to patch things up.

I still have to go with the flow..

I miss my family. I miss my friends..I miss whoever that is "missing"!

Errmm..

Anyway, tadi sempat pamper myself again...too stress out at work.I bought myself another "pair"..again!

Kantoi Part 2

Dear Beautiful readers,

Sorang lagi staff under my care buat hal. Accidentally sent sms to me (or purposely? which i don't think so!) to another staff (the one that acidentally sent sms to me - refer posting on kantoi Part 1)

Aku confront that staff. Terus muka dia merah padam. And terus confessed everything..

Aku tak paham. Why me? This is quite a challenge though. I really have to be patient.

Ada keje salah. Takde keje pun salah.

I am not being sexist, tapi aku rasa...gini laa nasib kalau keje ngan ladies. Too many "cucuk here, and there", exchanging notes etc etc.

Ntah laa...berapa kali lagi aku nak sit down and discuss with them. Pening aku nak pikir camana lagi....

P/S: God, please give me lights and guidance. Amin.

Sharpen Yourselves..

Dear Beautiful readers,

I got such an interesting email from my friend Ezz. The excerpts as per below:

Sharpen Yourselves..

..Once upon a time, there was a very strong woodcutter.

He asked for a job from a timber merchant, and he got it.

The pay was really good and so were the work conditions.

For that reason the woodcutter was determined to do his best.

His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he was supposed to work.

The first day, the woodcutter brought down 18 trees.

The Boss was very much impressed and said, "Congratulations keep it up!"

Very motivated by the words of the boss, the woodcutter tried harder the next day, but he only could bring down 15 trees.

The third day he tried even harder, but he only could bring down 10 trees.

Day after day he was bringing down less and less trees.

"I must be losing my strength", the woodcutter thought to himself..

He went to the boss and apologized, saying that he could not understand what was going on.

"When was the last time you sharpened your Axe?" the boss asked.

"Sharpen? I had no time to sharpen my Axe.

I have been very busy trying to cut trees.

The moral of the story:Our lives are like that.

We sometimes get so busy that we don't take time to sharpen the axe.

In today's world, it seems that everyone is busier thanever, but less happy than ever.

Why is that? Could it be that we have forgotten how to stay sharp?

There is nothing wrong with activity and hard work.

But we should not get so busy that we neglect the truly important things in life, like our personal life, taking time to care for others, taking time to read, etc.

We all need time to relax, to think and meditate, to learn and grow. If we don't take time to sharpen the axe, we will become dull and lose our effectiveness.

So start from today, think about the ways by which you could do your job more effectively and add a lot of value to it.Hope this story has given you some insight to life.May you be happy always.

"To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart."

Alone VS Not Alone

Dear Beautiful readers,

I wish that I was on leave today to entertain my sis and her family.

But I couldn't.

I even received phone calls from my boss in the morning, asking for something (at that time I was already in my office). And that's why I couldn't take leave today. The deadlines are a bit tight this time...:-(

I feel a bit guilty though. But they are ok, they r going somewhere else anyway.

And when I reached home, i felt the pinch of loneliness. Hahaha (tu laa...masa budak2 nih ada, i mean..my anak buahs, aku serabut - after a few hours, then masa diaorg takde...u wish they are here with u!). My house looks slightly cleaner (probably those anak daras dah kemas siap2 takut pakcik dia marah! hahaha)

Anyway...got a call from my brother. They are coming here too this weekend. Another guests?

Sunday..

Dear Beautiful readers,

It's Sunday.It's slightly different when ur family members are around in your house, with kids running here and there.

I am not sure whether i like it or not. But it's not really a problem, but it's far from the norm.

Went for lunch in Wangsa Maju and managed to have another peek at my would be crib. I brought them to the show room and I did ask the agent on what's the current price like now. And guess what? My unit now went up to RM 500K! oh my god..that's why sometimes buying a house is better than changing into a new car (or buying a couple of new pairs of shoes? hehehe!)

The place is expected to be completely developed by November 2009. Just nice I think...for the New Year, New Me, New Place...:-)

Long weekend..

Dear Beautiful readers,

It's the long weekend again.

I wish I am somewhere. Outside KL.

But i am not..

Have to settle few things at work (although my two staff - after the sms incidents are still reluctant to assist, but i don't mind though..) I didn't really stretching out myself and it's manageable. Hopefully everything will be OK!

My sis and her family arrived from KB at 6 p.m. Yes, as expected, of course my house will be a bit chaotic with the kids and well...i got used to it though ;-) I brought my nieces and nephew to Pavillion for dinner (their mum and dad at home, resting...) and well...i didn't know why i feel so jealous looking at few "couples" having dinner in Pavi (some are familiar faces...i think they looked at me too - perasan!)

Back from dinner, had a game of Monopoly with the nieces and nephew. I do care about my "toys" and of course, my family members too...at this point of time, i think they are in deep sleep while me still in my room doing this! Haaa...i wish I am with someone too..

Anyway, here are some of the piccies (i thought i was the winner, but ended up my 11th year old niece got the title!)

Kantoi!

Dear Beautiful readers,

Imagine...u accidentally received a text message from someone who is actually talking about you with the supposed to be the "original recipient"? berbelit2 pulak ayat aku nih!

Cakap melayu laa senang...

Tadi, one of my staff accidentally sent sms to me (supposed to be to my other staff) talking bad about me with the other party(my other staff)

Then i replied her sms saying "thanks a lot!"

Then she replied back..."i am sorry...i am sorry bla bla bla.."

So funny!

Well..let's see how it goes....

Busy Monday!

Dear Beautiful readers,

Ermm...as expected, today was quite a busy day..but manageable. Z told me that Gucci will start their sales today. Although I left office at almost 9 p.m., i managed to drop by the boutique, checking out whether there are any good bargains..

Thank God there's nothing much or else there will be another splurge! (or probably not what I have expected kut?)

Anyway...

Reached home at 9.30 p.m, managed to prepare 2 layers of egg banjo, nyum2!! getting fatter laa macam ni kan?

And of course, as planned, I am currently watching (at the time of writing) the ever,nice romantic comedy (too much memories) - You've Got Mail at HBO !! :-) Love it....

P/S: Thanks Z for giving me that Vidi Aldiano CD. Love it! Z bought it in Jakarta last weekend...

Nak gi Jakarta laa... ;-)