Sacrifice, Frustration, Do or Not Do?

Dear Beautiful Readers,

Betul kata shrink, i need someone. Mula2 i don't really enjoy the session, as he gave to many intros.
Tapi lama2 aku rasa comfortable..

Tapi sayang, aku hanya sempat jumpa shrink nih for less than an hour due to the fact that I have to attend another meeting.

But i'll be having another appointment with the shrink next Tuesday.

And another frustration, in the evening.

I am supposed to go back to my hometown tomorrow, but have to cancel due to some "ad hoc, 'gelojoh' work requirement". I have planned my leave "ages" ago, but well..sad to say, i have to mengalah..:-(
It's such a bad timing.

Tapi memang aku frust. Tadi dah siap gi Toys R Us beli toys for my nephews. Dah beli birthday gift for my niece. Terasa nak peluk Ma and Abah aku.

Tapi..ntah la. It's different kind of feeling.

God knows, this is such a test for me.

Shrink?

Dear Beautiful readers,

Aku tak menang tangan.

Aku tak cukup support.

This is such a big challenge for me and yes, I can feel that I am in the race.

Well..i am gonna see a shrink i.e. psychiatrist tomorrow, as recommended by Gen.

Pelik kan?

Satu Tarikh..

Dear Beautiful readers,

Satu tarikh.

26 July 2009.

Happy Birthday to my younger brother, H. It's his 24th.

The talented director, Yasmin Ahmad, passed away. Alfatihah

:-(

Dear Beautiful readers,

Aku takde mood nak menulis, although aku ada benda yang nak ditulis.
Cuma one of my colleagues at different office shared with me quite a good set of words, written by one of the colleagues that both of us know.

.."We live in a very judgmental society.In office, I watch with sadness how superiors pass judgments on their staff, usually without knowing much about the staff to begin with. Likewise, now that I am leaving the company, people are more forthcoming to share their views so I discover that even staff are as judgmental about their superiors – not much different compared to the superiors."

Bingung? Bengong?

Dear Beautiful readers,

Pagi2 lagi aku dah rasa bingung.
Pening.Runsing.Dilema.

Non stop thinking about this and that.

Feel helpless.

Sampaikan aku sesat buat pusingan dua kali from KL to Kajang (aku nak ke Bangi actually tgh hari tadi) and pusing balik KL and terus ikut Sg Besi nak ke Bangi.

Aku bingung. Bengong agaknya.

Petang dari Bangi, balik ke KL, masuk semula office, until 10 p.m.

Tapi aku kecewa. Pasal aku rasa takde yang peduli. Mungkin mak aku je kut yang risau.

Help me!

My fellow countrymen :-)

Dear beautiful readers,

Aku bukan laa taksub dgn those guys who hail from the same state as me.
But I feel good.

I feel that I have the responsibility to take care of them and share with them the good things.

It's the culture, it's the brotherhood thing.

It's not the "assabiyah" or semangat "kenegerian".

And it happened to me while at work tadi (on Sunday?)..

Jeng..jeng..jeng

Scenario 1: Me with two auditors (not bad looking..hehehe) at work (boring...*yawn*)
I heard that the two auditors were talking in the dialect that I am familiar with...
And suddenly aku pun...

Me: Ada orang Kelantan ke?
Auditor A: Duo2...(both of us)

Me: Laa...(smiling)
Auditor A: Duk mano? (where do u stay?)
Me: KB, dkt "toot". Demo? Demo pulok (while looking at Auditor B)
Auditor A: Kawe Telipot, dio Guo Muse..(My Note: Jangan pandang serong kat oghe Guo Muse, diaorg pun ada yang keje kat Big 4 audit firm OK! :-)

And all of a sudden, I feel good. Feel like I have to share good things with them. I don't know. The feeling came naturally.

Yeah, I did talk and share with them my working life and also they shared their grievances with me. Kesian jugak but what else can I do? I wish them the best of luck and hope they are OK with their work (and life too)..

P/S: Ajak depa berniaga lah! Tapi nak bukak kedai apa?

BABEL

Dear Beautiful readers,

I think this particular film did give some impact to me, especially the part where Amelia (the maid) searching for help in the desert, in the middle of nowhere (probably near the US - Mexico border).

It's kinda "disturbing", not in a violent manner, but more to...ermm...if i am at their place, what should I do?

A very well directed film! Love the music score!

P/S: By watching this film, I think I value my family members more...